Saturday, September 20, 2014

I'm Still Here

Sorry I have been MIA for a while.  We are going through some really difficult times lately.

But in the meantime, I have totally rewritten my testimony, which you can read here.

Friday, August 22, 2014

Adoption Love Link-Up: Intros


So many adoption bloggers that I know love Kristen and her blog, Adoption Love, and I am no different.  This month she has started a monthly blog link-up and I am very excited to start participating in it! 



The discussion topic for this month is intros.  How did I become part of the adoption world and where is my family at in our journey?

I don't share all the details of our journey that brought us to where we are now, but I don't mind sharing a fair bit of it.  In the summer of 2010, we made the painful, difficult, yet relieving decision to quit ttc and instead switch to adoption.  Amongst other factors, this decision was made primarily because of my epilepsy and epilepsy meds.  I was on an epilepsy med that was safe for an unborn baby, but did not control my epilepsy very well and was starting to give me negative side effects.  I switched to one that I had been on years earlier so I knew it worked very well for me, both at controlling my seizures and giving me minimal side effects.  Unfortunately this med is very unsafe for an unborn baby.  Hence the quitting ttc.  I could've experimented with other meds to try and find a different one that controlled my epilepsy and was safe for an unborn baby, but both Hubby and I were very reluctant to, as I was already in a bad place health-wise and we know I am very sensitive to medications.  A decision had to be made and we made it.  Not to say it was easy at all; I definitely grieved for quite some time over never getting to meet the baby that I had dreamed so much of.

We contacted our adoption agency that same summer and I embraced everything adoption full-on.  We spent the following year's time switching me over from my past medication to my current one (we did it over one year so as to minimize withdrawal), getting me healthy again, saving up money for adopting (we were working on subdividing our property), we told our immediate families we were adopting but no one else, and we attended a free info night at our agency.  Also, I devoured adoption blogs like there was no tomorrow.

In the spring of 2012 when we finally went public with the news that we were adopting, and finally actually started the adoption process, I was super-eager to start my own adoption blog and start connecting with other bloggers, which I did.  I consider you my friends!

In the spring of 2013, on May 14, we were officially approved for domestic infant adoption.  We have now been waiting 1 1/4 years, and as far as we know we haven't been shown to anyone during that time.

      
How did you become part of the adoption world and where is your family at in their journey? - See more at: http://www.jkadoptionlove.com/#sthash.AWe5tsVs.dpuf
How did you become part of the adoption world and where is your family at in their journey? - See more at: http://www.jkadoptionlove.com/#sthash.AWe5tsVs.dpuf
How did you become part of the adoption world and where is your family at in their journey? - See more at: http://www.jkadoptionlove.com/#sthash.AWe5tsVs.dpuf

Monday, August 18, 2014

August 2014 ICLW

Wow, I haven't participated in ICLW for almost a year!  Well, here I am.  And here you are!  Welcome!!

Speaking of, I just updated my "Welcome" tab so feel free to click up there and read that :)

My husband and I are approved to adopt and have been waiting for 1 1/4 years to be matched.

I like cats, chocolate, scrapbooking, the sound of rain, presents, wildflowers, cheese, and a great many other random things :)

Looking forward to hearing from you and visiting your blogs!

Friday, August 15, 2014

No Fruit on the Vines

If you ever have a chance to, read Habakkuk in the MacArthur Study Bible, ESV, along with the notes (it's only 3 chapters long, and totally worth it).

I found it very inspiring, how in the hard times when Habakkuk was questioning God about how [he perceived] God was ignoring the problem, Habakkuk ultimately ended up choosing to have confidence in God, to quietly wait for Him to act, and to rejoice in Him.

"Though the fig tree should not blossom,
nor fruit be on the vines,
the produce of the olive fail
and the fields yield no food,
the flock be cut off from the fold
and there be no herd in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD;
I will take joy in the God of my salvation."
Habakkuk 3:17-18 

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Motherhood Month - 11

Progress:  It has been 1 1/4 years since we were approved to adopt.

How I'm feeling:  I've never been one for enjoying taking the time to figure out how I'm feeling.  I don't like turning introspective and trying to evaluate my feelings.  "How are you?" or "How was your day?" are some of my least favourite questions to be asked.  I have a hard time summing up an entire day as "good" or "bad" as I tend to see various events or emotions (each which rarely last long) as good, bad, mediocre, etc.  I am a very live-by-the-moment kind of person, with high highs and low lows.

As far as the adoption wait goes, my thoughts and emotions range from one end of the spectrum to the other in any given month as well.  This month, I would say my feelings about it have included, but have not been limited to: contentment that God knows what He's doing and peace that He will time everything out according to His perfect will; excitement that we could get 'The Call' any moment and become parents in a heartbeat; discouragement as I realize that everyone's getting older - my child(ren)'s grandparents, cousins, us, etc; and both doubting if we'll ever get matched and also hoping we don't get matched before we get to go on a vacation to celebrate our 10th wedding anniversary in Spring! (don't get me wrong; I'd take Baby first!)

Craving:  Nothing; I just finished a lunch of Baked Eggs Napoleon.  A little something sweet to finish off the meal would be nice, though.  Maybe I'll eat an apricot yet.  There's one on the counter getting too soft and needs to be eaten.

Thoughts about our future child:  I know I say this often, but most of the time I'm simply just curious!  Gender?  Nationality?  Personality?  Things that don't matter at all but that I'm just curious about, you know?

Thoughts about our child's expectant mom:  I guess "curious" is the go-to word here, too.  What will our relationship be like?

Most recent baby purchase/gift:  Nothing for us, but we did buy a couple really neat gifts for friends of ours who just adopted their first baby.  We haven't given the gifts to them yet, so I won't post pictures here, in case they happen to read this blog ;)

This month God:  I am thankful for His Holy Spirit who lives in me and is continually teaching me, reminding me, encouraging me, prompting me.   

Monday, July 14, 2014

Motherhood Month - 10

Progress:  It has been 1 year + 2 months since we were approved to adopt.

How I'm feeling:  In this moment, I'm okay.  So that's a good thing.

Craving:  Something a little sweet to finish off my meal.  I just had a Mexican Omelet.  Now I would like, hm, a Chocolate Strudel?

Thoughts about our child:  The other day I caught myself thinking, I wonder what my kid(s) will think of me?  And then I very quickly decided that was probably not a good route to go down, because it only matters what God thinks of me, and I can't live my life wondering what others think of me (so rarely they even are thinking about you at all, eh?!) 

Thoughts about our child's expectant mom:  Where are you at in life?  I'm sorry you are going to have to go through the difficult times coming up.

Most recent baby purchase/gift:  Nothing.  There's a lot we need yet that I wish we had, though.

This month God:  Has reminded me that He died for me, personally.  That believing in the historical Jesus, the Son of God, the one who loves everyone, and died on a cross to save the world from death - is not enough to save me.  But that believing that He died personally for me, that I deserved to die because I was a sinner - I couldn't meet God's requirements to be perfect - and He took my place instead because only He was perfect enough to be that final sacrifice - that is what saved me.  Praise God; without Him I am nothing.  


Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Just for Fun

I suppose it would be unethical if our adoption agency had signs out like this for human babies...

This sign for a local pet store caught my eye while driving.
...although potentially convenient.  Joking, of course!